Male views vs Estrogen ways

The Power of Perception… Through Words: A Deep Dive into Gendered Language and Emotional Responses

The intricate relationship between language and perception of words has sparked significant discrimination and interest throughout my quest in life to find myself.

Male views vs Estrogen ways

Men Say Pussy & Women Immediately Feel Disgusted, Why?

• Why the fuck not? Disgusting perverts!

Perception is more important than anything in life.

Women say pussy, and men get aroused, WTF? why?

• How can there be such a huge difference?

Ahhh, being born in conflict is not abnormal

• Being born a female trapped @ birth in a man’s body

Words are not merely instruments of communication; they convey emotions, cultural nuances, and societal values that can vary widely across different genders. In the context of attraction, the language we choose can either enhance or hinder interactions between individuals, significantly influencing personal and relational dynamics.

One area that exemplifies these dynamics is the varying reactions to certain terms across genders, particularly the word "pussy." This term elicits notably distinct responses from men and women, reflecting broader societal norms and emotional associations. For many men, the term might evoke a sense of power or desirability, often linked to aggressive or bold expressions of masculinity. In contrast, women may respond to it with a sense of vulnerability or discomfort, reflecting societal expectations surrounding femininity and sexuality. These contrasting interpretations illustrate how language can reinforce stereotypes and shape emotional reactions based on gender.

This blog post aims to delve deeper into the linguistic nuances of attraction, focusing particularly on how specific words, like "pussy," not only hold different meanings but also incite varied emotional responses. By analyzing these differences, we can gain insights into the effects of gendered language on interpersonal communication, individual identity, and societal structures. Understanding the power of words in the realm of attraction can illuminate how language shapes our experiences and influences our interactions, ultimately contributing to a more nuanced perspective on gender and emotional responses.

Not Becoming Society's Bitch is Important in a Male Dominated World…

Since I was 6 years old, I have always been delicate, feminine, and kind. Once the bullying started, I began shutting down, once physical, sexual, verbal abuse started I lost confidence

Being ground down to less than nothing, a filthy rag, a sinner, unworthy, unable to live... Without a White Arrogant CHAUVINISTIC male God, I lost my inner voice

Society's bitch, inferior, constant fear of the dark, death, fear instilled... Rooted in my soul by the book of bullshit... The Bible... I lost my ability to grow

Finding my talents and gifts at work and with healing and helping people in my communities as a teenager began a exodus, a grand liberation from white tyranny

Yet leaving the freedom of teenage exploration and into the White world of GREED.. Tainted that liberation.. cause an affect

Want success, cut your hair, act white, acknowledge the White God as the only God or you'll go to hell, you'll risk your ability to become successful in business

Cannot neglect women in this blog. Religion is very judgemental and skews human view points at evil, hell, sin, and morality. All of which shape societies social norms. Politics with a very different agenda do basically the same thing. Fuelled by greed and male desires rather than humanity. Men shape the world in which we live. Like a Lion free to roam the range in which it lives. Men dominate society by… by their desires. These men are not poor, they are not humanitarians, they are the leaders of the previous two

Is it not ironic that ALL the religions of the world, yet they differ on culture and nationality they ALL oppress women, they all make women feel like a bitch and nothing more! Who’s sole purpose in life is to wait on a man.

Fact god damn not fiction, can’t make this shit up. Religion frightens people into obedience, politicians frighten the public into submission with laws and a unhealthy current geared towards greed…

These are the only 3 evils in our Universe… Politics - Religion - Men

They all abuse and keep women held back from finding themselves, reaching their full potential.

Guess what there is a “New Voice” rumbling and building across the land! This voice is gaining liberties, this voice is siding with women, this voice is Non-Binary! We are tipping the scales, slowly, however there is a shake up like the world has not seen for 250 years! Irony, the exact same time Pluto last entered the sign of Aquarius and that date was 1777. Why is that important? During the time Pluto was last in the sign of Aquarius was during the American Revolution, the French Revolution and when the whole world did anything and everything to get to America!

November 19th of 2024 Pluto entered Aquarius for 19 years. In which we will see more momentum and not just stopping there. We will see a world shift in power. I just spoke of the 3 evils holding back women. Those 3 evils now have resistance. Equality which started last century decade by decade will now all be unified moving forward.

What does that mean? I predict through Astrology that during these next 19 years things will change. Israel will no longer commit genocide on those it’s religion hates, Gaza will find support, Iran will collapse from its religious misconduct of women. America my land will become bankrupt, lose the value of the dollar. Jetson cartoon way of living will become a everyday way of life.

Now what is hard to predict is how peaceful these changes will be? But I guarantee a social-world revolution no longer benefiting just men, benefiting the whole world. Moving towards a one world passport, breaking barriers and limitations that keep cartels, gangs, politicians, tyrants oppressing it’s respectful people and moving towards a world where we can find - a quality of life in many many places never before seen. Obviously there will be fierce opposition, there will be resistance back by hate and unwillingness to adapt to this new change. Change is coming, change is stability, change will happen.

Language is a powerful tool that shapes and reflects our social realities. The nuances of gendered language reveal how words elicit different emotional responses based on the listener’s gender. This divergence can be traced back to both psychological and sociocultural influences that shape our perceptions. For instance, research indicates that women often react more sensitively to emotional language, whereas men may respond more favorably to assertive and direct communication. These patterns can be attributed to social conditioning, which encourages individuals to adopt distinct linguistic styles that align with traditional gender roles.

Additionally, societal norms dictate language use, leading to varied emotional responses among genders. Women may be socialized to prioritize expressive language filled with empathy and nurturing sentiments, while men may be conditioned to adopt a more stoic and commanding voice. This conditioning creates a linguistic landscape in which words carry different weights depending on the user's gender. Studies have shown that terms typically associated with masculinity, such as "competitive" or "dominant," can elicit feelings of empowerment in men but may foster discomfort or aversion in women, who may view them as abrasive or aggressive.

Moreover, these gender differences in linguistic preferences can contribute to misunderstanding and miscommunication, emphasizing the importance of awareness in emotional expression. Individuals navigating gendered language must consider not only the words used but the context in which they are delivered. Recognizing how societal conditioning influences these linguistic preferences can aid in fostering better communication strategies across genders. By bridging the gap between these perspectives, we can gain a deeper understanding of how emotional responses to language shape our interactions and relationships.

The Sociocultural Context of 'Pussy'

The term 'pussy' has a lengthy and layered history that reflects the evolution of language and societal attitudes toward female sexuality. Initially, the word served as a diminutive term for a female cat, but over time it adopted various sexual connotations, becoming intertwined with discussions on gender, power, and autonomy. The contemporary usage of 'pussy' is often associated with both derogatory and empowering connotations, depending on the context in which it is employed.

Furthermore, the acceptance and usage of 'pussy' can vary significantly across different cultural landscapes. In some contexts, the term is celebrated as a symbol of female empowerment, while in others, it remains heavily stigmatized. This fluctuation underscores the importance of understanding cultural narratives and the sociolinguistic realities that shape our perceptions of gendered language today. Ultimately, the term encapsulates a complex web of meanings that reveal much about contemporary attitudes towards sex, power, and femininity.

The Impact of Abuse and Bullying on Gender Perception…

Experiences of abuse and bullying can profoundly influence an individual's perception of language, especially when such experiences occur during formative years. The emotional responses elicited by specific words or phrases often become intertwined with personal trauma, leading to complex feelings of disgust or arousal. For those who have faced bullying, the weight of associated language can evoke memories that are far from neutral. This challenge is compounded by social experiences that shape one’s interactions and comprehension of language in diverse contexts.

Consider a child who is subjected to verbal abuse at school. Certain phrases or tones, which might seem innocuous to others, can act as triggers, eliciting feelings of fear or anxiety. Over time, the individual may develop a heightened sensitivity to language that reminds them of their past experiences. Consequently, words that should convey affection or camaraderie may instead incite adverse emotional reactions rooted in those traumatic memories. This transformation in perception highlights the intricate relationship between language and emotional trauma.

Furthermore, the sexualization of language can elicit varied responses based on prior experiences. For some, language imbued with sexual innuendos may evoke feelings of arousal, whereas for others, it may trigger feelings of revulsion or a sense of violation. This dichotomy emphasizes how personal narratives reshape interactions with language. Individuals with histories of trauma may frequently navigate social spaces with an awareness of how responses to gendered language can reflect their past, thereby affecting their emotional landscape.

Ultimately, the confluence of abuse, bullying, and language creates a landscape where certain words are laden with emotional baggage. This dynamic serves as a reminder that language is not merely a tool for communication, but a vessel carrying the weight of personal histories and emotional experiences.

Societal Expectations and the Quest for Identity

Throughout history, societal expectations have played a pivotal role in shaping individual identities, particularly in relation to gender. Women, in particular, have encountered persistent pressures to conform to traditional roles that often prioritize appearance, compliance, and nurturing capabilities over personal ambitions or desires. These constructs have led to a diminished sense of self-worth, as many individuals grapple with the expectation to fulfill predefined societal narratives. The constant comparison between one's authentic self and the image projected by societal norms can lead to a profound identity crisis, leaving many feeling detached or inadequate.

The pursuit of identity amidst these cultural pressures can be particularly daunting. Women are frequently branded as 'society's bitch' when they refuse to adhere to established norms or when they assert their independence and desires. This derogatory labeling serves to police behavior and maintain conformity, discouraging individuals from embracing their complexity and showcasing their full potential. Such dynamics create an environment where many individuals might feel inclined to suppress core aspects of their identity, resulting in a fragmented sense of self.

Reclaiming personal power in the face of such societal expectations is imperative for both self-acceptance and empowerment. By fostering open dialogues about these cultural narratives, individuals can begin to recognize their own worth outside of traditional frameworks. This reclamation process involves challenging societal assumptions and affirming the multifaceted nature of identity. It is crucial to advocate for spaces that uplift diverse identities, allowing for the flourishing of personal voices that resist societal limitations. In encouraging the acceptance of varied expressions of self, society can gradually shift toward a more inclusive understanding that honors authenticity rather than conformity.

You cannot win in court

Again, giving up, walking away from a successful business to fight, win custody of my drug affected baby... Wtf.. I didn't use drugs, I didn't abuse her, I did not use cocaine while being pregnant, I didn't use cocaine while she was born in a motel room... Why should I have to fight??

Again, EVERYONE, church, friends, family flooded my voicemail with disgusted messages of.... Why are you trying? You cannot raise a baby alone, your throwing your business, your success, your ministry away!!

Done with the book of condemnation.. Book of bullshit... Done with the Bible... I stood on a word of abuse from my mentor... A famous healer... Said.. People will try to pull on you, they will try to manipulate you to their desires, their wants... They know you can heal, they will pick you clean like a vulture if you let them...

Remember this... You are NOT obligated to heal, you are not obligated to use your gifts... It is a choice to heal! Help people! Once that had become toxic, you need to let go

I let go, I never agreed in the White God, I never believed that EVERYONE in the world is going to hell... I never believed all the restrictions, demands, of the White religion.. Christianity..

I was however haunted, forever bound by chains

I did FIGHT, I did win, I did raise a drug affected baby girl ALONE till she married .. I was not a good father.. but I was one.. I let her wrap me around her finger... She knew I would not discipline her because I was afraid of.... Society's newly found way.. I was afraid she would be taken away from me...

So much so .... I stopped drinking for 17 years.. Afraid if I got a DUI I would lose her...

But that is where I failed, WHERE I did not fail.. was as a mother.. I've always been feminine.. I'll cry before ever finishing this peace of writing..

I'm more female than most women ... But society and it's stereotypes, white religion and it's CHAUVINISTIC male DOMINANCE... Resists

“It is not easy rewinding 50 years... of being societies bitch”

To be a female trapped@birth in a male body, what does that even mean?

But, when life forced the opportunity to start where I left off, shut down as a kid... Life altering accident... Away from everyone, in a country where I did not speak the language, had no friends, no support.. kinda shitty at the time..

Finally overcoming instead of repressing physical, sexual, verbal, gender abuse...

Started in the mirror

Buddhism f...u....c... K (my sister used to say… sometimes no other word best fits the moment like… FUCK!) was the knife finally able to cut out the evil roots of the book of bullshit from my soul... The book of bullshit is soooo subtle... It's a nursery rhyme... Just like Disney... Nothing more... but it roots into a soul.. it destroys the inherent human ability to grow!

ONCE that clarity is established… after cutting cords to places and people I no longer needed, and return to the unconditional love that was always within me...

You see, we are not born sinners.. How fucking absurd...twisted… How god damn sadistic Christians are! Mental torture is what it really is! Vietnamese POW camp… style mental torture

They tear you down.... Then they build you up???

Sick.. just like every other cult in society's history

No one deserves that torment

No one deserves to be humiliated

No one deserves to be forced into a life of fear, of worry, of inferiority

Shaping Against My Will, My Spirit Cried Out.. NO! I Walked Away

They were shaping me to become a pastor at 19 years old... But I heard an elder say/state so openly one night....

"Christians are the only ones who eat their babies"

I thought immediately, what the hell is he referring too???

He was right, they birth you, then they eat you alive... More contradiction than a Charles Manson tale

Buddhism gave me the strength to FIGHT for my freedom, discover myself and find indescribable peace. Serenity once I learned how to meditate. Namaste

It was worthless for me to fight and win custody of my daughter with all the baggage that was haunting me within

Looking Back, Would She Have Been Better Off with Her Foster Family??..

I honestly cannot answer that, honestly I now see things much differently. I am now much more able to see how much damage I had endured.... Love is not enough when raising children!!!

I never had parents, my parents never told me they loved me, my parents never taught me anything, they never invested anything into me. Mother go-go dancer who never spent time as a mom. My father was an all-american athlete. Held state track record for the 4x100 in which he was the anchor for 30 years. All-American baseball catcher who acquired a pro baseball offer from the (at that time) Milwaukie Braves.

However his passion was football, where as the starting half back, during his last game.. as he was landing in the end zone a linebackers kicked him in the back of the elbow…. Ending his sports career… Sadly his greatest gift was anger, fighting.. where he was the 2nd toughest guy in his state and sadly where while in a bar one night shortly after his sports career had ended…. He beat a man so badly that the guys nose came off his face… and he died

I grew up in fear of my father, I have seen my father just look at…. People and they literally run away! Happened one day in Beverly Hills while we were building a 7000 sq ft home for a client on Canon dr. They (2 extremely wealthy Israeli men) were pushing my father for more, more free “changes” These men would change their minds like we change underwear…

One time I remember digging (by hand) the footing for the round circle driveway wall. A 6 foot high iron gate (120 feet across the drive way) on top of a decorative block wall. Three fucking times! I was 16 years old at the time. Anyways shortly after they were crying about more changes (we had moved a 4 foot interior wall 4 times) and he fucking lost it, he did not say one word! He simply took one step, pointed and looked them in the eyes! 2 grown men in thousand dollar suites ran out the door!

So, I never got any time with either of my self-absorbed parents.. One was a Shirley Temple spoiled brat, while the other literally looked like Charles Manson with Clint Eastwood eyes.

So I Vowed to Try, I Told Her I Love You Every day!!

My dad left when I was 2 years old. In contrast, in raising my daughter for the first 16 years... She was only away from me for an accumulative amount of 16 days!! But saying I love you.. being there everyday is not enough!!

Ironically, I was a great mother! No doubt

But I was not a whole person, I had baggage that limited and inhibited my ability to parent her the way she deserved! All parents use the same ole dirty excuse…. “I raised you the best I could” as if children are supposed to just ignore the grand canyon left by bad parenting! We send kids to school to learn algebra, physics, biology and yet we never teach them, society never teaches ANY child the basics.

No one ever teaches us how to balance a check book, manage credit, manage our hormones, how to handle peer pressure and bullying! And we wonder why prisons are full of people? Nooo really?

Children deserve more than sperm donors and incubators. They need healthy parents, they need support, they need us! Now today America has gotten so bad that we are forced into careers where we work 60 hours a week as an average? Fucking pathetic, where is a chance for “the quality of life” each person deserves? Greed is all it is. Children pay the price!

Ironically, children are understanding and always there to forgive us fucked up adults! They just want us, they just want us to connect with them, get involved with their crucial development and sadly 99.9% are getting fucked!

So, I failed… as a parent.. as a man… as a dad. My daughter suffered for my choices. Yes I was a mom when she did not have one. I thought I did the right thing? Her mother was last convicted of robbing 3 banks in 3 days in Alaska few years ago. Do I blame her mother? Actually no, not at all. I was there, I saw her parents and how they destroyed her. My daughters mother was raped when she was 12 by the 19 year old neighbour boy. Her dad did not believe her and sided with the boy. I know how hard it is to come out after being raped, I was myself from 6 years old to 9 years old. It is horrific, especially when you confront the matter and you get shunned or even worse humiliated by denial! Like I was, I know she was never able to overcome that moment in her life and she rebelled into many other ways of unhealthy living. I made it out of the gangs, drugs, after my grandfather went in for a heart attack and came home with AIDS, one of Americas first wave of AIDS patients do to bad/tainted blood transfusions.

I never overcame my demons, fears, gender crisis until my late 40’s. But I was lucky enough to escape death, crime, all the things that lead to the grave or prison. That is why I had no problem marrying my ex. I believe in people, I believe people can and do change! But, they have to change, we cannot do it for them. I failed my ex in one way, I took her far away from her problems and gave her love and opportunity to become healthy. However healthy ONLY starts in the mirror! I never helped her overcome her demons… Nor had I overcome my own at the time.

But like I said, that is no excuse for our daughters pain of suffering from being born high on cocaine and having seizures everyday of her life until the moment the judge let her come live with me on a trial basis. She never had another seizure since! But I still was not a good dad!

I also used to brag, that I made sure she was never sexually abused. My daughter in fact was so close to me that after she started her period and I’d call her after school make sure she was going straight home!!! I was not doing it just to say high, I had an ulterior motive. I would say how are you sweetie? She’d sometimes respond not good daddy! I’d say why sweetie. She would respond with… I feel like my vagina is falling out daddy! Exact words!

Open communication, but bad execution as a parent. Just because we do not beat our children and we do not kill them and they make it to turning 18 years old…lol Is not a declaration of successful parenting!

Conclusion: Reassessing Our Political, Religious Dominated Choices All Ruled by Men…

As modern society evolves, so too must our ways and choices of what is and what is not tolerated.

Now pussy does not excite me, it disgusts me

Don't show me nude photos...ewww Disgusting. Instead talk to me, get to know me, kiss me for heavens sake. But don’t be crude and rude. Do not unleash uncontrolled sexual desires upon me! Yikes that is exactly my sentiments today. Why? I have a male body… so how can I be different? Without going into specifics or details beyond what I am writing. I will say that hormones are very powerful. The most powerful part of every life. When those hormones are not balanced, or over fed they become like that of demon possession. No doubt, I do not believe any boy dreams of jacking off for 6 to 8 hours nonstop! Do you realize how raw your penis can get? I know within my own life, that I never wanted those desires! I in fact was ashamed, being so feminine as a person, that really tore me down over an over an over again!

I was different, even before accepting the facts of who I am, accepting that fact I am a non-binary person. Who is taking extremely happy now that I have found estrogen an how to take it. And god damn thankful... to lessening the amount of testosterone in my body... Controlling of my hormones, acceptance of my feminine side has been so normal, so natural. For the first time in my life, I was not ashamed going to the doctors and asking for GAHT treatment! I am not ashamed at buying my meds, I am not ashamed in openly discussing it either. Is truly amazing!

Hormone balance has ONLY been available for women!! Over the course of history, Sad.. that is truly unacceptable and in need f a change! One in which I am wanting to go back to college and start from the beginning to become a RN with a BSN and eventually work with Transgender people.

Men are the ones trying to tame the beast within, women do not get possessed... Like men do! What re the statistics of rape and child molestation cases? Last I head it was one in every 7 children/people are sexually abused in their lives and 90% go unreported?? With College women being the worlds source of rape victims? That must change! I have done any research on the topic. But I am extremely confident that women are less then one percent of the predators. Making men and men’s raging hormones to blame for 99% of all sexual abused cases in the world. A fact in point is the leading cause for unhealthy adults struggling to cope and exist in society Sexual abuse is the worst human experience imaginable!

As a male body... How many moments in my life was I consumed with sex??? How many times did I jack off for 6+ hours?? Never being satisfied!! 200, 300 times in my life? I do not care to try and remember. One of my worst nightmares for sure

I know women trying to understand this blog, is like men try6ing to understand having a baby or having a period. There are just certain things that one gender cannot understand about the struggles of the other. That is why we need this to come out of the closet. It is and always has been a taboo. No mother wanted to discuss with their 13 year old boy that how too’s of jacking of! No Father wants to discuss with their little princess about losing her virginity and how much the boy that she is going to lose it to is not going to love her. Let’s face it, Statistics are there for a reason! They carry weight, not to limit other realities but we need to not focus on sex education for girls!

We have failed our children since forever! Sex education is pathetically about “how to” or “how to not” but it is never about the body! Hormones, especially those raging hormones developing right now in every teenage boy across the world! Poor bastards do not know what is even hitting them and we are doing nothing to aid in this nuclear energy building within sweet little Johnny’s body!

Sure is is easy to blame, after all that is what society does best. Point finger and literally destroy a person. What we do need is focus. If we can send people to the moon, learn biology, split cells and clone people. Then we sure the fuck can educate, lessen and balance male hormones from becoming rapists!

Easy to say, religions are famous for this… saying they are evil, they were born this way, nothing to do, or say some hail merry’s full of bullshit and send them back out to the slaughter.

No no no no no mis ninas, ninos.. We all need education… but that starts in the mirror from A to Z and NOT skipping XXX. We need to have healthy hormones. We have the technology today to help us. I am living proof that once we look within, face ourselves in the mirror, without running, without denial and most importantly listening to our bodies! We can be our best self!

Over a year of GAHT treatment.... And I no longer am thinking pussy... I have porn.. no longer need it.. just accumulating dust...

Can I jack off.. Yes... Can I get erect... Yes..

I never had sex, all my life without kissing .... Could not

Even in a swinger's environment, my kiss... Not my body... Is what gave pleasure to many6 including models... In and out of swinger's clubs... Vegas ... LA... Dallas... HK

My kiss... This Kiss... Movin... Those hips... Shakin that ass... Wettin those lips... For this... This Kiss... for my dear friend Mellissa… who looked me in the eyes one night as we were leaving the Hard Rock casino in Vegas… we were 3 girls, single parents (I was not yet claiming non-binary) we were besties! Angel, Mellisa and me:) That night Mellisa the crazy Aquarius, model, extremely independent… looked me in the eyes and said blue eyes like mine, I want you to take me home right now, fuck me in the ass and do not be nice about it!

Ohhh shit… fewwww I am a girl, I am kind, I fight for women's rights, I could not rape anything, I must be nice about it.. all racing through my mind.. I drove to the lake to distract her…she kept yelling I’m shitty.. I’m feeling shitty..Shit Shit shitty :) as she was peeling clothes… damn.. she had me cornered a few times…just trying to sober her up enough to tame her… my friend… stopped by a few PT’s bars on the way back to her house… I tried just dropping her off in front.. she played me, lied to me, to get me inside her house…

Once on the couch.. once I caved.. you never seen a girl jump off a couch so fast to go get a condom in your life when I finally said yes…. Gia.. without degrading us anymore with details…

After we were done.. what did she say to me ????????????????????????????????????????

?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? God damn that kiss! Her blue eyes lit like Christmas Trees! Me blushing like Rudolph’s nose!

I still kissed her, even in positions not allowing me to do so.. I found ways.. I fucking kissed my friend like no one ever had done so before… One thing about a kiss.. you can fuck models, superstar's, porn stars, or 10,000 like Gene Simmons… but although he can say pussy is pussy… no one can ever say a kiss is a kiss! There is that ONE special kiss.. few ever experience in life.. where you reach into the soul.. tenderly exploring areas, tickling spots no one has ever done so…been to before

There arre nice moments when we kiss and connect with someone, sometimes sweet and tender, sometimes erotic and shades of grey… But then…. There is that one first kiss… that even at 90 years old you still long for! You can kiss 500 other frogs and NEVER get the sensation, the tickle, the soul soothing experience of that .. one.. this kiss~

I've always been a female... Lesbians always found me... I was way to shy... Otherwise to have had most of the experiences in my life. Grown women used to chase me when I was in my teens, god damn.. I was sexually abused, I was shy, goodness fucking gracious I was a girl in a boys body! But they found me.. my one friend.. yikes I am going to share something I have never shared before… Glen would basically lock me in a room with some random 80’s glam rock girl… and I would find a way to make it out alive, still a virgin! He would ask me smiling on the way home… are you afraid of getting your dick wet or what? I remained silent… 13, 14, 15 as a repeating theme for me.. until.. pandoras box opened… I am not physically desirable, I am not proud of many things.. But I am happy to have found my.. this kiss.. and the affect if had before my most recent ex… 5000 orgasms.. Gene Simmons had sex with 10,000 women.. I surely never even reached 500 sexual partners. I hope not

But once I found the pussy, without ever saying PUSSY… this kiss wet so many.. in fact.. had girlfriend's.. where they had at least 10-20 orgasms each time we touched… over let’s say a few where we would soak bed’s, towels, we would go through stacks of towels.. where they would achieve 50 orgasms and often.. I never did! 5 plus years I came once a year.. NO other man is proud of that.. why me? I can only assume it is because I am truly a lesbian trapped inside this man’s body..

Mixed up... sensual, intimacy rocks me, different, do not fit any box, I do not even fit transgender I do not think, but I fit within me… my skin.. this life.. very very well! Pussy means something very different for me!

Wrestling male hormones, white society, white religion..

But... The truth of who I am.. Exceeds society's chaos... Gives me the confidence and peace that

I'm in exactly the right place at exactly the right time

Cultivating positive energy, positive self...

Become, Becoming me

A Female heart, A Lesbian trapped@birth in a man's body....

It's all good... Now

Pro estrogen...

Respectfully,

Star

This journey is not merely an academic exercise but a vital step toward more meaningful relationships and a more inclusive society.